your days seem longer and dull everyday, you try and make new best friends but you know they wont beat your best friend that you lost,loved and learned. You try and add in jokes what you use to laugh about with these new people and they look at you like wtf ?!?! you just hope to fit in yet you don't really do !
you finally get into a group of people who act like your family they enter you like someone amazing, they laugh with you not at you and they treat you like one of them which is quite welcoming :) but you know deep inside that you still miss your best friend jumping on you talking about stupid things and just being boys !
day by day goes and you see him with other people "friends" and you think that you can never be replaced as his best friend, his right hand man….. his brother yet you see someone next to him making him laugh, giving him food and being a fool with him, it makes you feel like a fool thinking how he can move on and you cant !
you finally come out that your gay to people you get really close to and you feel that you can trust them, but do you really trust them ? no.. not until two of her friends come and ask you omg your gay !? i guess it brakes your heart that you could trust one of you close friends ! you know that your old best friend would of kept it safe ! would of helped you feel welcomed, but you know hes not there to ask anymore! soo you have to talk to the traitors because you dont know who else will find out!
times like this you wish you had your best friend there helping you every step finding you guys to get with if hes not homophobic and give you tips in what to do !
you miss him soo much that you need him everywhere ! you want to smell his after shave in the morning, you want to feel his hair and tell him "not bad of a haircut", you want to hug him and it will not be awkward !
soo why do you still not like me for who i am if i told you that i like you !?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Str8 men for you ! They fuck you and leave you and tell you they are not fucking gay what a gentlemen!
day by day goes and you see him with other people "friends" and you think that you can never be replaced as his best friend, his right hand man….. his brother yet you see someone next to him making him laugh, giving him food and being a fool with him, it makes you feel like a fool thinking how he can move on and you cant !
you finally come out that your gay to people you get really close to and you feel that you can trust them, but do you really trust them ? no.. not until two of her friends come and ask you omg your gay !? i guess it brakes your heart that you could trust one of you close friends ! you know that your old best friend would of kept it safe ! would of helped you feel welcomed, but you know hes not there to ask anymore! soo you have to talk to the traitors because you dont know who else will find out!
times like this you wish you had your best friend there helping you every step finding you guys to get with if hes not homophobic and give you tips in what to do !
you miss him soo much that you need him everywhere ! you want to smell his after shave in the morning, you want to feel his hair and tell him "not bad of a haircut", you want to hug him and it will not be awkward !
soo why do you still not like me for who i am if i told you that i like you !?!?!?!?!?!?!?
cute xD
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