i had the perfect relationship ! we would of been together on this day for about 6 weeks now !
you loved me i think i loved you who knew cuz we ain't met before. Was i scared ? was i being stupid? was i even paying attention that someone else loved me soo much ?
well gratefully i didn't see that !
another him re-entered my life and i took it as quick as i can ! we met up did things i wouldnt of done, did like it ? NO i regret what i did, i left you because of the fun ! but in the end it made me realise that i didnt want him n i dont want you.
i guess i saw the life with two different guys ,
1) i wanted my ex back cuz i wasnt over him, but i ended up seeing the light !
2) i left my current boyfriend because i wanted my ex back and it was a stupid thing to do because i could of been loved by someone more caring !
i guess i still didnt want him because i wouldnt see him everyday ! it will just be a few ever months ! unless he lived with me !
but the things i had to do just to be with him like going on cam even tho he didnt have one and like going on msn all the time to talk to him and having a reason why i wasnt on the night before !
gosh i aint someone like a dog who needs to be controlled… yes i like a man to control me but not in that way ! i want him to control me in bed and in charge of my body !
that what im worthy of ! my life is my own my body is to share with someone i love not want to kill.
i guess i still have to search for the right one .. someone who can surprise me rather than give me what i want !
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